scream like you mean it

yea

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 01:25:34 GMT

Now I remember how pointless these things are. I'm done with it.

If you want to know something, ask, and if you won't, then i guess you don't need to know.

"...these violent delights have violent ends..."

HUSH! I CAN'T HEAR!!

Wed, 19 Jan 2005 23:45:14 GMT

I don't know when the last time it was that i updated, but here ya go.

I passed both of my SOL's that i took (geometry and science). Got advanced on science, and don't know my score for geometry yet, because i didn't go to school yesterday (didn't feel like going). And i kinda wish that i had gone, because i had a very unlucky day anyway, go figure. Today is my mother's birthday...and my english teachers, and dolly parton (spell?), and edgar allen poe...yes, it's alittle strange, but, oh well.

I have an english exam coming up....*inhales*....and i don't feel like it. I don't feel like anything really. Just once of those life times, you know. I haven't watched any of my shows in forever, which is a bad thing, because now i'm a week or two behind, and i don't like that, it gets me confused.

My little sister is being annoying again....go fucking figure. I'll go now, because i have nothing else to say, except that Kyle is sick </3, and ann is too </3 </3. And I guess Trey too, or, i dunno. "...run through the ear with a love song..."

just so you know

Thu, 13 Jan 2005 21:19:14 GMT

SOL's on tuesday and wedseday, and then, other stuff. I won't change my schedule, but i really want to. Doesn't matter, next year i'll get ahead like i wanted. Feels like the end of the school year, the lazy teachers/students, the warm weather, the stupid shows....Tomorrow is going to be another lazy day, and right now, i can't hear the phone, so stop calling stupid person that i will not name. I have everything worked out for later, and it's gonna be fun, mwuaha, they never had a chance, you now know that.

I guess, that i shall leave you so i can call my soon-to-be lover. CURLY-Q!! Farewell!

GIVE ME BACK MY SIN

here ya go

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 00:47:35 GMT

"Something interesting for Justin to read"

yea

Thu, 06 Jan 2005 22:07:36 GMT

Nothing really to say, so i haven't updated in a while. Just a bunch of stupid practice SOL thingy's at school, a bunch of annoying ass teachers, evil parents, and lots of music thrown in there somewhere. Tomorrow's Friday, and a good thing, because even though this week has gone by really fast, it won't be over soon enough.

Good-bye

information

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 00:53:54 GMT

Ok....haven't been on for a while.
So....here's the information.

.Wednseday.____Got grounded </3. Begged my mom to go to Autumn's house....finally worked. Went to Autumn's (her mom picked me up). Rented movies. Dawn of the Dead didn't work. Stayed up 'till 4. .Thursday.____Went to the mall. Pissed off because my mom didn't give me all my money. Blew my 80 bucks on a present for Caleigh, present for Autumn, socks, and undies <3 (pirates and camo.*muah*!). Got stalked by a red haired semi-cute guy. Wasted shit load of money at the arcade. Got candy. Watched "Meet the Fockers". Stayed up 'till 6 playing video games. .Friday.____Had to get up really early to go BACK to the mall because our "friend" at the cash register forgot to take off the stupid ink thingy. Went back to the mall, stalked semi-hot guys. Dyed Autumn's tips purple, little non-visible streak in mine (mom wouldn't let me do the whole thing </3). Tried to dye Edwards, didn't work. Babysat little spoiled kid. Made some money, randomly danced, blah blah blah. .Saturday.____Got up earlier than Autumn to take a shower. Went to go to the pit, but couldn't b/c of people with four-wheelers. Went back to Autumn's....dyed her tips again, because i missed spots. Edward came over, and we all went to the skating rink. Went home. .Sunday.____Got woken up earlier than i wanted by my mom. Went to the mall once again with Kelsey and her family. Endured preppy store for 15 minutes (way to much). Got four shirts. Bought another present for Caleigh. Bought some other stuff. Got good hot chocolate. Left the mall. Ate at fast food place. Went home. Grounded now, don't call (not that you do). Found a box full of sharp objects What a beautiful thing

Important

Tue, 28 Dec 2004 02:30:13 GMT

'ello!(return salutaion)How might you be?(your response)That's good. Same here. *beams*. It's been one whole month and one week. I'm happy that i went anyway *smiles*.hehehe.

Not alot of people are online right now. Haven't talked to Ann in a while. Hmm...wonder where she is. Haven't talked to Kyle in a while either, or anyone else for that matter.

I don't see anything now
So just say what you wanna say
It's kinda funny how
I'm not listening anyway

Today I had to babysit, and i talked on the phone with Justin and Autumn for quite some time. But then Autumn had to go, and then i had to go. So er, yea. And me and Autumn (accidently) made Justin mad....(sorries!). But, i think we're ok (hopefully).*winks*. So now, i'm just listening to The Used, and talking to Autumn on AIM. Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind. If you don't have the new The Used cd, GET IT!!!! Really, it's fuckin' awesome. Er....(haha Harry Potter)....ok, i guess that's all. No Italian dancing.

Those yesterday's feelings....

hello

Sun, 26 Dec 2004 23:20:16 GMT

Ha....it snowed alot....that's coolness. I just played in the snow, and built a kick ass mini-fort. It's so purty! And now i'm just listening to music again, and waiting for dinner. My mom cleaned, (thank the nonexisting god) and i got mad at my super mario game (it cheats!!). So, yea...ok...right....

My fort's better!
*sticks out tongue*

Sometime between now and never....

Sun, 26 Dec 2004 17:56:21 GMT

It's snowing <3<3<3<3<3!!!! I love snow more than i love stuffing and cheesecake (not combined though). Right now i'm....online (no one's on), listening to music, procrastinating from cleaning, and playing super mario on my old super nintendo game system that i hooked up a couple of days ago <3. This game brings back memories....*sighs*. Err....i went to bed pretty late last night, i couldn't get to sleep, so i decided to clean up my room while listening to music. But then some one called in the middle of the night, and woke everyone up. Something about my grandma, but she's not dead, so i guess it's not that important. *shrugs*. I hope it snows lots-n-lots....

~bury me deep~

i know you didn't mean it

Sun, 26 Dec 2004 04:18:03 GMT

Is it wrong that you're an open book? Maybe it's all in my head. I'm not confused, but i don't know exactly. I didn't have to, i didn't have to. When you get that look. Nothing has to be said. I know it's not me. I know....it's not you. I never meant it. You didn't want me to. Things work out so perfectly (horribly). We all feel it. They won't hear you. Feel it this time, just for me.

Linkin park is not gay. It just depends on the person. If i like it and i don't try and force you to like it, then don't worry about it. Just because you don't like them doesn't mean i won't.

Moving on. I'm bored, and i have nothing to do, except have the tv on, and listen to music.

Hey, scoot!

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 18:37:02 GMT

"Right where your vagina should be!"

"Bramble Patch"

"Wait until you're married!
Or else!"

It's christmas. Yep *blinks*....i got stuff, and kathryn got stuff....and....people got stuff. Zeke called <3<3<3! And at first i thought it was shawn....ick....</3. I was scared, but, then i found out it was curly-q. He wished me a merry christmas, and then had to go...,but, yea. Autumn called me this morning to tell me that she got her phone (yay!!!!). And then, she had to go yea. So, i was thinking about calling some random friends to wish them a merry christmas, but i really don't want to interupt people on christmas. Right now my grandmother and pop pop on my mom's side and my older brother (little denver) are over. And my little sister is being shy....which is weird. I'm watching mad tv, it's a marathon. Woot-woot! Just waiting for Eva and all them to come over, so we can get this day over with and i can drown myself in my new music. I love you new lamp, it's so....different <3. I suppose i'll go and eat some more fudge and wait for dinner to come along so i can stuff my face....ahh...stuffing....*drools*....mashpotatoes....yumm....bye. Only if you want to....

......it's christmas?

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 07:07:12 GMT

Well, yea, it's 2 or something, done baking....woot-woot....my mom's wrapping my presents, and kathryn finally went to sleep after a half hour of trying to convince her that santa wouldn't come until she went to sleep....but, she kinda didn't want him to come....lol....i told her the only semi-terrifing thing that i could think of that wouldn't get me in trouble....santa would lick her toes when she was sleeping, and the reindeer would sit on her....she got all histerical about that....it was amusing for a while. She's been trying to learn how to play my nintendo 64 mario kart game, but she's too whiney to learn....so blah on her, i always win....mwuaha. Tomorrow we have my older pregnant sister (Eva), her boyfriend (John), her other sister [don't ask] (Cece), and her almost 2 year old son (Richie) coming over for some food and of course to "hang out with family on the holidays"....psh, like anybody wants to do that, lol. Eva just doesn't want to cook....which is understandable and blah blah blah. Later on, my bestest friend from pa is coming over (THANK THE NONEXISINT GOD!! someone other than my family!!). And she got me something that would help me with my guilty pleasure (no, not anything even remotely close to what you're thinking you pervs....you should be ashamed....)....it's a Linkin Park cd, one of the better ones, Hybrid Theory, what can i say? When i went up there for 2 weeks over the summer, i kinda got into them (she's openly OBSESSED....seriously). So, yea, that's the reason, and now she's happy that she got me into them, and lol, yea, so....I dunno, i guess i'm gonna get some sleep, or....just listen to the on going radio in my head....whichever feels better....

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
(i hope you get some kick ass presents)

i love you this much-blah:)blah(:blah-

yo

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 00:40:59 GMT

Multi-tasking is a beautiful thing. I'm watching mad tv, and listening to music and updating and talking to josh. Ann signed off right when i got online, and kyle/autumn/justin/anyone interesting aren't on. But, i'm still in a good mood. Fuckin' A yessum. All i have to do is put up with little children tomorrow, clean here and there, and act like i care....and that's about it, for the next few weeks. I just realized, that i'm going to be at autumn's on new year's eve, yay. I can go into the new year being stupid with a friend, woot-woot. Reminds me of fifth grade at christina laure's house....except we hated each other....don't ask. But her brother dawson, i want to see if he's still a cutie, he'd be....7 or somewhere around there now. Aww, he had the cutest cheeks, well, next to my little cousin, Jalyn (spell?)....she's adorable, and she's got really pretty eyes too. I cooked some of the day....made fudge, and cheesecake...<3<3<3<3<3!!!! And....er...we're gonna make cookies later too....for santa, and leave them out with some milk for him, and some carrots for the reindeer!....blah blah blah, oh, being young must be good you get whatever you want whenever you want, i wanna be a kind.

I love you....

Merry Fucking Christmas!!!!

(and a happy new year)

help me......

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 08:40:35 GMT

I just finished wrapping presents. People's court is boring....who cares about people's problems....especially ugly people's problems....really ugly people. I'm tired....kinda....lol....yea....but, er, that's ok, i'm fine, yea, yay, goody goody gum drops, freakin' A, blah blah blah blah. Tomorrow will be better.

I don't understand....

It's Christmas

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 06:55:42 GMT

I'm wrapping gifts....ugh, what a great job, the only good thing is....i get to stay up later....and watch stupid meaningless shows....woot-woot! Where's the holiday cheer? It wasn't in my egg nog, and it wasn't in my mom's eyes when she handed me the wrapping paper....and it sure as hell wasn't in the cheetos i ate. *looks around*....I dunno, maybe someone stole it or something, oh well. I'm bored....and my knee hurts....and everyone's asleep, except me....mwuahaha....i love being the only one awake in the house....well, tomorrow is full of cooking, and walking around, and being stupid, and the best part of cooking....being the TASTE TESTER!!!! Wow, i love food. So....i hope you have as much food to stuff your face with as i will, and you better get some kick ass presents, because that's what Christmas was all about....(yes....that's what it's about).

Merry Christmas.....

woot woot

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 04:15:10 GMT

I am watching Jerry Springer, talkin' to Autumn and Sam....These two short people are kicking each other, it's kinda weird. My sister is pretended to be a dog, and it's....strange? Yes, we'll go with that. Oh look, on the tube, now they're pulling hair....so interesting....and she just flashed the crowd, and now they're booing. And poopy pants and mustang are in my room (my dogs, don't ask about the name).....more pulling and kicking on the tube. Man i'm bored out of my mind. I had nonalcoholic egg nog, and it was tasty....and kyle left....and so did ann, and this guy is ugly, and has a mustache. I have to get off line now, b/c of my mom, or something, i dunno, fuck it.

-good-night-

boring....boring....boring....

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 01:24:44 GMT

I don't know where anyone is....except josh....and maybe lauren's with him....i'm not sure....but, i think Ann told me that she's going somewhere, but, i can't remember....so, er....oh well....I hate the holidays sometimes....it's so....boring when no one's around or online, or anywhere, or anything, or freakin' A....grr. Less than 2 days....like...1 and a half. And....then....er....what is it? Like....umm....5 and a half days 'till Autumn's? Yea, we'll go with that. I don't think i'm going anywhere sunday, so Autumn, if you're reading this, yay!!!! I'll probably call you on sunday or something, so, then, yea, we can get EVERYTHING worked out. And it better fucking snow soon, or i'm going to get really twitchy. *sighs*....er....can't wait for NEW MUSIC!!

Just smile and nodd.

bored out of my mind

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 17:33:03 GMT

No one's online, or....if they are, then they're away or something. Man, i don't want to see what summer's gonna be like. Whatever happened to everyone on your Buddy List being online? Video IQ is on fuse, *hangs self*....i hate this show, but they do have good videos....blah. I just woke up, i mean....it's not like i have anything to do anyway. I'm doing all my shopping after christmas, when i actually have my money, so....that's when i have to buy presents....hopefully me and autumn (possibly justin and edward) will go to the mall and waste a day. So....2 days 'till x-mas, and 6 days 'till Autumn's....well, time doesn't go fast enough when you're bored. Where the hell is Ann? She wasn't on last night hardly at all, maybe just once that i saw, (even though i took a 3 hour nap after i got home....hehe) and then she wasn't online at all. WHERE ARE YOU ANN!?!?!?!....

one last time

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 19:09:32 GMT

hi....out of school....

....finally....

and yet, all it means....

....is that i'm going to be....

....REALLY FUCKING BORED....

3 days left....

1 week left....

Nothing else to say i suppose....

ok....

Tue, 21 Dec 2004 21:14:58 GMT

Well, the obvious....christmas is just....3 and a half days away, and for some reason, it doesn't feel that way. Either way, i'm fine with it, and i'm excited that i finally get some new music and some money to blow. Which i'll probably be spending on presents for people that got me something (even though i didn't want anything!!!! but thanks anyway). My mom left the dogs in the house today and they tore up everything.....my dirty clothes were all over the living room, and they ripped some stuff animal's head off and it's stuffing was EVERYWHERE....so i had to clean it up. Only a week left 'till i have some real fun. And then i have some "plans" in the making for months ahead, but i'm not releasing any information until it's 100% going to happen, which it will, because i'll make it work......I'll leave you to think....good-bye.

Oh, and no, it's not the tea party....

I know it's hurting you,
but it's killing me...

DANCE WITH ME!!

Mon, 20 Dec 2004 14:43:10 GMT

80's music is fun! lmao....There is like....no snow outside, but, hey, if we get out of school, then we get out of school, fine with me. But i'm waiting for some real snow, like....3 feet, psh, like that'll ever happen, i wish. Josh won't pick up his phone and neither will justin and lauren had to go and ann isn't online, and i'm sad now. Justin: HA I WON!! You suck, but i still lurv you, even more than snow...mwuaha. Ok, well i'm gonna go wrestle with my dogs and play computer games, because no one's online, yay. Buh-bye friggers, and don't forget to GET YOUR SKOOT/SKEET TODAY!!!

OMFG!

Mon, 20 Dec 2004 02:26:50 GMT

IT'S SNOWING!!!! AND I'M NOT GOING TO SCHOOL TOMORROW EVEN IF WE HAVE SCHOOL!!!! SO PUT THAT IN YOUR PIPE AND SMOKE IT MUTHA FUCKAS!!!!....ann's watching a movie, josh actually remembers something, lauren got distracted and isn't talking, and philip won't talk to me because he's an asshole.....point is?....IT'S SNOWING!!! WHY DO YOU NEED A POINT YOU FUCKING IDIOT GO OUT AND DANCE IN THE SNOW LIKE ME!!! *runs away*.....mwuahaha, i lurv snow, this much *holds arms out*, my full capacity of lurvving.....Justin can't get phone calls after 9, or, so his brother says...his brother is annoying, he's all like "no calls after nine"...and i'm like "well sorry *click*".....oh well, Justin i win!!! and i'm gonna rub it in your face tomorrow, (if we don't have school *sticks out tongue*) and then, i'm just, gonna win, so blah. And bye.

sure

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 23:26:55 GMT

I am fixing my jacket right now. And my little Denver and his g/f and their puppy are visiting. Kathryn is actually being quiet for the time being. Last night i went to the parade, it was ok, but it was really really cold. Ana cut her hair!!! It looks good, and i like it, but i miss her hair the way it was before, oh well, it'll grow back. Caleigh and Brittany Dorian, and some girl name Torri were there and we saw them. I hung out with Laura Ana and Laura's older sister Anna. Jimmy was with us for the last....i dunno, hour or something. Then we had to go, we weren't there for long, but i had fun anyway.

squish anyone?

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 16:17:14 GMT

well....

Hello friend,
How might you be?
That's wonderful,
I must say.....
I haven't seen you
In quite some time
But i'm content
Either way

I might go to the Onancock parade with whom, i am no sure, but someone i bet, and then i will (hopefully) go to Kayla's and spend the night and go to the skating rink, because i'm suddenly not grounded for some odd reason that i can't comprehend, and yet don't want to understand even if i was able to. I was woken up at 9:30 this morning *twitch* by my mother because her and Denver left, for what, i don't know, i wasn't paying attention, because i was trying to get back to sleep, which by the way didn't work....And i'm very ANGRY that it didn't work, but ALAS!!! I fear there is nothing left for me to do. I shall call someone in a few minutes to see if they're going to the parade....so i shan't be lonely, and then to see who all is going to the skating rink this weekend, if they already didn't go last night, which hopefully the important people did....but, we'll see. Good-bye for now i say.

everything's gonna be alright

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 01:01:53 GMT

Wow, this week is just such a good week. I got into yet another fight with my parents.....yes, another one. My sister was bugging me at the table about playing my game, and i was telling her that if anyone was going to play my game it was going to be tonite, b/c she played it yesterday and the day before that. And i was telling her no, since she has yet to learn the meaning of that word, even though she's 4. And then Denver got all pissed off and said "why do you have to be so ugly to your sister?" and a bunch of other things like "you act like you know everything about life, and you're the shit and all of this, when you don't know a thimble's worth of what life's about, and all of 'you' act like you're the best thing in this world, but you're not" and then he said "listen little girl" and that just pissed me off, and i said "why do you call me that? please don't call me that" and then he just completely freaked out and stood up and started pointing and yelling at me and telling me that i talk to him like shit, and i treat him with no respect and he doesn't deserve to be talked to like that and i said "what did i do, i just asked you not to call me 'little girl' because it made me feel like crap" and he went on and on, and then my mom joined in and said stuff like "god kristina, why did you have to say that, that was uncalled for" and things like "we do everything for you, we don't have to buy you clothes that you want, from now on, we're just going to get you whatever the fuck we want you to wear" and then my mom said "yea, i'm taking the phone away, i'm taking the computer from out of your room, and the tv and the stereo and no fucking christmas for you, because i don't have to do any of this shit for you" i just sat there and ate my orange the whole time. And then cleaned off the table as it is my job, and then went into my room. After i left, i guess Denver put some more shit into my mom's head, because she came into my room and started yelling at me some more. Telling me that my only problem was that i had an attitude and didn't know when to shut up, and that i don't have any friends because of my mouth, and something about that how i go to other people's houses and their parents love me and say how good i am, and then she's thinking "what my horrible child?" and that made me feel like shit. And some other stuff like i didn't understand what they wanted and how i didn't say anything to them, and i told her that i never said anything to them, because i knew that i'd get in trouble, b/c they took everything i ever said wrong. And that just made her more mad, and then she left my room and went and talked to denver about how he shouldn't call me girlie, after i told her that it made me feel stupid, and then they "consulted" because i heard what denver said, and my mom came back and said the exact same damn thing, and when she said that i said "you just eat up everything he says don't you?" and she looked at me and said "what are you talking about" and yea, and then i told her "when was the last time we had a real freakin' conversation mom?" and she said "we talked the other day" and i said "one where you didn't get pissed off at me for no reason? when mom huh?" and she said "what?" and i said "we haven't had one in YEARS! what am i supposed to do" and then she started crying, and was all like "oh i love you kristina, you're my first child, i don't know what i would do if something ever happened to you" and then she tried to be all nice to me, and i just went along with it, and then we promised to "be better" or some shit.....